Most people pay a great of attention and lip service to their thoughts about wanting to change. Almost everyone wants to change something about themselves or their lives.
Fact is most people say they want to change but really have no deep desire or any intention to do what it takes to change.
Change only happens when you are ready not when you say you are ready or think you are ready or want to be ready.
Change takes making a commitment to yourself. Unfortunately most people experience greater stress keeping promises they make to themselves than they do with promises they make to others.
Fact is most people break the promises they make to themselves. What do you think goes on in your subconscious mind when you continue to break promises you make to yourself?
Until you are truly ready to change and commit yourself to doing what you need to do to make change happen stop telling yourself and others you want to change. At least you will stop feeding the opposing force in your subconscious mind.