Habits Run Our Lives

Always looking for the gift…

When I awakened at 3 AM a thought popped into my head. All my life I created circumstances that took me away from people making my life very private, very quiet – and allowed me to create a world I may never have known – inside. The many talents and gifts I discovered may have remained hidden even from me had I not found mself with so much time alone.

When I was growing up being a tomboy was definitely not fashionable. So my friends were boys – until we got old enough for the boy-only sports leagues. Then I found myself stuck again. The happy news is I always had boy friends with whom I could do the fun stuff like climb trees and rocks and play baseball. The stuff most girls just didn’t want to do.

Okay so that was how it was. But that is not all it was. You see I also too kmyself out by getting sick. I think I did that to see if my mom would take off work to stay home with me. Only she couldn’t because we needed the income to live (my dad having transitioned to the next plane when I was really little).

Now I am not talking colds and flu. I am talking mono and hepatitis, the kinds of illness that took me out of school for months to the point I even had to drop out of college to recover.

What hit me during the night is every time I moved into some social network and made friends I attracted someone or something that knocked me out of the game. The ultimate blow happened when that client attacked me forcing me to leave the field of psychotherapy.

Hmm, the patterns we repeat untl we get the message…

And here I thought I now heard the whispers of the Universe and no longer needed the 2 x 4 attention-grabbing blows!

You cannot break a habit until you know it exists.

In the darkenss of the middle of the night I recalled mentioning to my friend, earlier in the day, that I felt unable to leave the house because my cat really misses me whenever I disappeared from his site. Now realize (this is the same cat who neary left me a few short weeks ago and my thinking is heart issues develop from a lack of insuuficient attention and love. I always felt that my Dad left us at such a young age with heart troubles becuase he didn’t feel loved – but that’s a personal issue.)

I have been afraid to leave my cat to live my life. I waasn’t there in the moment my Bubby left or my first cat and I got to my Mom the instant after she left.

Okay. I know  spirits decide when to leave. I also know my Mom did not want to leave with me there. And that is how it is. And here I am repeating that pattern with my cat.

Again I took myself out of life – again – so I can create.

I do that taking myself out into seclusion, of sorts–and I write music and articles and I paint.

And I teach what I most want to learn – living in happiness.

And I do know how to live in happiness. I constantly test myself to prove to me what I know and, more importantly what I do and teach, works. Beyond a shadow of a doubt I know how to ive in happiness.

With  that awareness I can now stop living as the subject of my own in-depth research!

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When Bad Things Happen To Good People

I kept this pretty quiet for a long time. Suddenly, 14 years later, people are asking me to tell my story becuase they find it inspiring. I figure if I can make a difference for just one person, if I can propel one person to disregard the verdict, “This is as good as it gets. Learn to live with it,” then sharing my experience becomes a must do.

So I recently wrote about what happened to me and how I overcame a disabling injury despite the docs paradigm that I would not get better. What this means to you is no matter what seems wrong, off or missining in your world, you can choose to forge ahead creating the reality you want to live.

Always remember that healing happens in the six inches between your ears and not necessarily in your physical or mental functioning.

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When Healers Think They Are Healing Others But…

When I worked as a psychotherapist I knew about this not-so fictitious place called Therapist’s Central where, it seemed, clients chose their therapists so both worked on the same issues at the same time. Hopefully the therapist stayed very many steps ahead of the client.

The point being that  clients forced the therapists to clear their own stuff so they could be of optimal service.  This situation gave each therapist a very much “being in their shoes” experience. (No, I am not saying a therapist has to live every  issue of every client they treat. I want you to know how often that reality appears. There are no coincidences.)

Realize all those events happened back before I ever knew about how we attract who we are. Obviously Therapist’s Central is very real. We call it the Law of Attraction!

What hit me just now is the fact that Therapist’s Central is not just about psychotherapy. As a Specialized Kinesiologist I do the exact same thing. Whatever issues lie out of my awarenes appear in the clients who come to me. What does that mean? While working with someone I see that some of my own situations, or the aftermath of them, appears in those with whom I deal.

Now here is where you must exercise caution if you work with a “healer” by any name. You see, it is not possible for any of us to be 100% clear. An awakened “healer” knows to clear herself or himself before  working with someone else. Such a healing agent also knows when the information that surfaces is their own stuff, that they are testing themselves in the moment, rather than what belongs to the client. And immediately corrects that situation.

How do I know all that? I trained with really excellent practitioners who immediately saw their own info coming up in their clients.  I watched how they tested for accuracy and then corrected the situation. They showed the difference between conscious living in their profession adn how the majority work.

I also saw healing agents who had no clue they  had switched from testing their client to testing themsleves – while it still appeared the client was the subject.

I saw such a healer once – me being the client. So interesting. Everything going on in her personal life showed up “for me.” I was clear that it was her stuff and not mine but, at the time, I did not understand how it showed as mine.

Another healer I saw would, miraculously, find that whatever expensive new equipment or supplement she just bought was the exact remedy for “my” situation. Needless to say I stopped seeing both of those people.

Thing is, both situations arises more often than one might think. So I offer that caution when working with someone.

Remembering My Mom

My mom was a celebration of all that is good in life. She modeled love and devotion in her daily living.

In a time when women stayed home with their kids my mom had to work to support my brother and me – and her mom too. My dad died when I was just eight so she had no choice. She did whatever she had to so we always had what we needed. And I knew not to ask for more.

Even though she worked 6 and sometimes 7 days a week, coming home for dinner then going back to close the office at night, when my mom was home she was with me. In fact my mom probably spent more time with me than the mothers of most of my friends who stayed home all day.

I never heard my mom say anything bad about anyone. She ran all three of her bosses businesses and kept the company afloat when the boss couldn’t make payroll. She was more than amazing.

Her beautiful voice still sings in my heart and in life. She played the piano and danced – like my daughter does today. My mom still fills my life. Everybody loved her.

Everybody knew Grandma Edie’s smiling face and warmth. Everybody.

Ten years ago today (on the Hebrew calendar) my Mom transitioned to the next plane. She makes sure I know she is still here when I, or my kids, need her. She come sin a very real very physical way so I cannot mistake the fact that she lives, not just in my heart but n a different dimension.

The soul is immortal.

I remember my Mom today though I do not live by the lunar Hebrew calendar. Being Jewish was important to her ad I honor her with today’s commemoration and the lighting of a special candle. For me, my Mm left on March 28. On that day I will share a song about the amazing special being I called Mom.

I really miss her. No matter how old you grow to be sometimes you just want your mom to hold you and  let you be a little dependent kid again.Everyone needs their Mom. Know what I mean?